It's Time to Shift Gears

Proverbs 3:5-6 "Trust in the LORD with all your heart and lean not on
your own understanding; in all your ways acknowledge him, and he will
make your paths straight."

Are you ready to shift gears in your life? If so, it's okay! Have you been grinding in your career for a few years and it's still not going anywhere? Maybe it's time to shift gears and allow God to take over the steering wheel.

Prior to coming to California, I had a career that I didn't like. Yeah, I was making money but the job sucked. I had a 5 bedroom house, a beautiful car, and a closet full of clothes. Some people would say I had it going on, but I didn't. I knew something wasn't right in my life. I was just going through the motions biding my time. It was time to shift gears in my life!! When I moved to Cali, so many people asked how long I was going to stay. My answer “I was going to stay as long as God kept giving me the go ahead". I've been here three and half years and each year there has been a steady growth. When I first came out here, I had no job. My girls and I were staying in a hotel room. Today I have a place and I manage both of my daughters’ careers. Because of how passionate I am about managing my girls, I've had people ask me to manage them. Both my daughters are excelling academically and career wise. I am also currently writing my first screenplay as well as being an inspirational blogger. Right now I don't have any of the material things I once possessed; but I do have a peace and I enjoy what I am doing. There's not a day that goes by where I am not grateful to be alive and following my dreams in HOLLYWOOD.

If you are constantly waking up miserable or you're just going through the years biding your time until they put you 6ft under. If you're at a career that's going know where. In a marriage or relationship that's not growing, it might be time to shift gears. So many people look at shifting gears as giving up. They are not the same! Its okay to say my way is not working let me see what God wants me to do with my life. When we turn over our lives to God and start fulfilling our "personal legions" we are shifting gears.

A few months ago, I had the pleasure to hear this casting director speak. He came to Hollywood to pursue an acting career. After almost two years of not booking any acting gigs he started assisting casting directors to supplement his income. He found he had a knack for casting and loved it; he started picking up more and more casting work and went on less auditions. He was one day blessed to be the casting director of the hit show “Cheers”. Had he not shifted gears he would have lost out on a rewarding career as a casting director.

Another thing you should know is that you are never too old to shift gears. I remember reading about this lady in her 40's. She had been an administrative assistant most of her working years for a director that was not so nice. She always had a knack for picking beautiful gifts and it had always been her desire to have her own gift boutique. Everytime she thought about giving up her job she would get scared. One day at work a huge rat ran across her feet; she gave her two week notice that day. At the time when I read this article, this lady had a million dollar business. She had shifted gears and was blessed for it.

There's someone out their coming up with excuse after excuse of why they can't shift gears. I don't know about you but I like waking up each morning loving who I am and the life I live. If you’re not excited about waking up maybe it’s time you shifted gears!!!


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Don't Give Up

Yesterday I went hiking, most days I love to hike and some days it’s torture. From the moment I left home I huffed and puffed and tried coming up with every excuse of why I should not hike. I really had to push through. Some days are like that. I have to dig deep down and find the momentum to finish that darn hike! Sometimes I can hike that mountain in a breeze and some days like yesterday I have to really push through to keep myself from giving up and going back home. I can report to you that I made it to the top of that mountain.

Hiking reminds me of my journey in Hollywood. The storms and excuses come but I push through them. While pushing through I have learned to enjoy the process. During my hike I took a minute to rest and enjoy the view surrounding me. Once on top of that baby I really sat back and enjoyed the amazing view :)

Are you enjoying your journey or are you sitting around being miserable?

The road to fulfilling our dreams, purpose, personal legends, visions or omens whatever you want to call it. The journey in fulfilling your dream is sometimes hard. Whatever you do don't give up. I think it would be harder to live with should of, could of and would of or the two words I hate the most I CAN'T. Following your dreams is a lot easier then living with regrets. I look at it this way I have nothing to lose so I might as well follow my dreams.

Now that I've said all of this I have to go I have a screenplay to finish writing. What's the worst that can happen? I complete it even get the money to film it myself. There's a chance that know one would want to see it; at least I would be able to say I did it and that's far more better than living with should of, could of, would of and I CAN'T.

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I Praise YOU

Shekinah Glory Ministry “Praise is what I do When I want to be close to You,
I lift my hands in praise. Praise is who I am, I will praise Him while I can.
I'll bless Him at all times.”

This week's blog is all about praising you Lord.

I am able to write this blog so that means I have my mind, hands and sight. Someone woke up this morning without these things.

There are millions losing their jobs; I praise you Lord because I am able to receive unemployment.

There are millions losing their homes; I praise you Father for the roof over my head.

There are some who have lost their cars; I praise you Lord because I have my feet to walk.

There is a couple that lost their child or can’t have a child; I praise you Lord for the two beautiful girls you have blessed me with.

There is a child who lost their parent today; I praise you Lord because I am able to call my mother and father.

There is someone who is all alone right now; I praise you Lord for the family and friends in my life.

There is someone out there that has settled: I praise you Lord for giving me the courage to follow my dreams.

There are some who have to turned to alcohol, drugs or man to find comfort; I praise you Lord for showing me how to find comfort in you.

There are men and women that have to sleep around to feel validated; I praise you Lord for showing me how to love myself.

There is someone out there that doesn’t know the Lord; I praise you Lord because each morning when I wake up I fall in love with you again and again. I PRAISE YOU






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Get it together!!!

Titus 1:10 -13 (I suggest you read the whole book to really understand what Paul was writing to Titus) For there are many rebellious people, mere talkers and deceivers, especially those of the circumcision group. 11They must be silenced, because they are ruining whole households by teaching things they ought not to teach—and that for the sake of dishonest gain. 12Even one of their own prophets has said, "Cretans are always liars, evil brutes, lazy gluttons."

Mohandas Gandhi “I like your Christ, I do not like your Christians. Your Christians are so unlike your Christ. “

Last week God lead me to read Titus. The same thing Paul wrote Titus about still exist today; greedy Pastors, priest that are molesting our young boys, bishops beating their wives and whores who stand amongst us acting like they do no wrong. All this is going on in the churches.

Each religion proclaiming to know the truth. How do you create chaos, hate, jealousy, evil, and confusion? You do this by separation. By having so many different religions I would say it has caused strife amongst God’s people. Because of this separation you have God’s children at each others throat. If everyone is walking around judging and casting stones but not looking at their own individual walk; how can we possibly spread LOVE?

Wake up children of God. I’m at church and I’m being fed from the teaching, the sermon is awesome. The Pastor is talking about walking in faith and not being lead by fear. Can I get an Amen! Then all of sudden the teaching abruptly stops. The pastor stopped dead in the middle of his teaching and said he would have to finish next week because his video tapping for TV had ran out of a time. It looks to me so many churches are concerned about numbers and tv ratings then spreading God’s word.

I find a lump in my breast. I inbox my pastor to see if I can set-up an appointment for prayer. He never replies back to me. I see him on facebook all the time so why can’t he schedule prayer time with me. Maybe it’s because he’s to busy socializing with his celebrity members to care about little ole me. On the flipside you have members attending a prestigious church because it looks good on their resume or you have someone attending because they know that top executive or celebrities attend this church. They attending thinking that if I get in good, I might just get hooked up. If you’re doing God’s will He will hook you up.

This is just a tidbit of the nonsense I have encountered when attending someone's church. The next time you wonder why someone is not attending church; take a look in the mirror and ask yourself am I just quoting the scriptures or am I actually living the scriptures.

Wake up aren't you tired of seeing the crap that goes on amongst us. Read the book of Titus and let's get it together.

Power of Prayer

Ephesians 6: 11 -12 11Put on the full armor of God so that you can take your stand against the devil's schemes. 12For our struggle is not against flesh and blood, but against the rulers, against the authorities, against the powers of this dark world and against the spiritual forces of evil in the heavenly realms.

Sometimes I think we get so caught up in praying for just material things and forget to pray for continued protection for ourselves and others. Each morning and through out the day, I am constantly praying and pleading the blood of Jesus over myself, my daughters, and for others. Each day the devil is plotting on how he can stop us from fulfilling our purpose and if we are not prayed up, we are walking around blind.

This weekend I was reminded again how important it is to plead the blood of Jesus over our lives for protection. I will get to that reminder after I start from the beginning of how the power of prayer has been passed on from my mother to me.

Now that I have my own daughters I now know that it is because of my mom’s and my grandmother’s prayers that I am still here today. I love giving examples in my blog because this is my spiritual walk and I want to share with you my journey.

As a teenager I was a wild flower; I was always into something. Streets should have been my middle name. I remember one particular night like yesterday. I was about seven months pregnant and there was a group of us on our way to the club. We were all piled up in a cab and I tell you there were at least ten of us; I still don’t know how we all got in that cab. The cab driver was so scared he didn’t have any choice but to take us where we needed to go. As we’re riding a car speeding beside us gets in front of us and the next thing I know there’s a another car behind us shooting at the car in front of us. We were caught in the middle of gunfire! We were only about two blocks away from the club. As the car sped past us to catch up to the car in front of us, we all franticly told the cabby to pull over. We got to the club and started inspecting the car; there were two bullet holes near the gas tank! The angels were with us that night and that’s because my mom was probably home praying for me, as she always did when I had my butt in the streets all hours of the night. This is just one instance I am recalling. I can go on for hours; I have plenty of stories of God’s protection being over me. Maybe now you can understand why I say I am God’s favorite :)

I began recognizing the power of prayer when my oldest was about eight. I had just dropped my daughters off at the daycare and she was so excited because they were going on a swimming trip that day. After leaving my girls, I started feeling really sad all of a sudden and felt like I should turn around and go get my daughter. I didn’t follow my gut to turn back around and get my oldest from daycare, but God put it on my heart to begin praying. I began to pray in tongues, the prayer was just flowing. I didn’t know why I was praying, but I knew I needed to pray for my oldest daughter. After praying, a peace washed over me. A few hours later while at work, I get a call that I need to get to the emergency room ASAP, my oldest was in an accident. When I get to the emergency room I see my daughter’s eye and I wanted to freak. Just above her eye it had been split open and you could see her bone. The doctor came and told me that she was the best in the state of VA. She said that my daughter was lucky because she could have lost her eye. The doctor told me she would stitch her up nicely and that when it healed you would not be able to tell where she had the accident. Today when you look at my daughter you can’t tell that she almost lost her eye. God protected my baby and he touched that doctor’s hands. From that day forward if I don’t pray for anything else I am always asking and thanking God for his protection. My girls will sometimes be asleep and they will feel me anointing them with oil as I plead the blood Jesus over them. 13 years later, and I am still anointing their heads. They are never too old for protection

This weekend my youngest went to visit a friend. I am not one to discriminate based on where a person lives, however the friend she was visiting lives in a very rough area. That day I was lying around trying to read the Bible, but I couldn’t quite focus on the Word so I began to pray. That night I went for a walk and again I prayed, but this time I prayed for protection over myself and my girls. When I got in the house, I text my youngest to make sure she was okay and I began to get ready for bed. Two hours later about 11pm, I get a call and it’s my youngest screaming about girls jumping her and that I needed to come get her. The call ended and I tried to get back in touch with her. My heart dropped because I could not get through on the phone. One of the friends she was with, her mother and I are friends so I called her and couldn’t get her. I’m shaking, I began to do what I knew how to do I began to pray. The girl’s mother calls me and she is 5 minutes away from my house. I finally get another call from my youngest. I’m going to spare the details and get to the gist. My youngest was trying to help a friend from getting jumped by so many girls, and in turn she was jumped by five girls. Four of them held her down while another one repeatedly stomped her in her face. Some adults had finally broken up the assault and had my daughter and her friend wait for us in the rec room. As we’re driving, I take notice of where we are and asked my friend if these were LA projects and she said, “No, we’re in the area they call ‘The Jungle.’” An area in LA known as gang banger territory. We get to the recreational center and my daughter’s face is swollen. I began to thank God because it could’ve been so much worst. I prayed for healing over my daughters face. The next morning, the swelling was just about down and the redness and scrapes were diminishing. Two days later, there is no swelling and the scrapes are nearly healed. What the devil meant for harm to my daughter only made her stronger and that more determined to fulfill what God has put in her to do. So, the next time you’re praying for that car, house, or financial increases don’t forget to pray for protection because you don’t know what lies ahead in your day.

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I am my FATHER’s favorite child!!!!!!!

For months now, I have been professing to anyone who would listen that I am God’s favorite child and if they need me to pray for them I would because My Father hears my prayers because I am His favorite child.

(Monday) This week I truly felt like I was his favorite. Last week I wrote, I wanted to have that NOW Faith. That faith where whatever I asked for (God Willing) would manifest quickly. For weeks prior to writing it, I had been speaking I was going to take my oldest to Vegas for her 21st birthday; as it started getting closer to her birthday it started looking like it was going to be impossible. The day I posted about having NOW faith, I found out my job assignment would be ending in 10 days on July 30th. I didn't sweat it. "I’m excited to see what God has for me after this assignment."

That afternoon I decided to test out my NOW Faith, I called the hotel in Vegas and paid my deposit for a room the week of my daughter’s birthday, knowing I would be out of a job that week. I called my daughter and told her we were going to Vegas. Each morning when I got up, I thanked God for my NOW faith and for allowing me to be his favorite child. Some days go by, and now it’s the Monday of my last week at work. I’m sitting at my desk starting to waver about this Vegas trip and praying to God. "Lord please don’t let me have to tell Babygirl we can’t go." I needed God to show up in a big way. Later on that day, my manager calls me into her office and she tells me that they’re extending my contract until the end of August and possibly into September. She also blessed me with something else, but unfortunately I can’t share that. Just know that God showed favor on me. Vegas here we come

(Wednesday) My oldest daughter who is an actress, singer, and dancer got a call about an audition at Universal Studios for their Halloween Horror fest for the month of October; she had worked for them before. Because it’s an open call, she decided to take her sister. The morning of the audition, I woke up thanked God for the opportunities, and the doors He was opening for myself and my girls. I knew deep down in my heart that my youngest was going to get it because like I said before I’m God’s favorite. Needless to say both girls got it. This was the youngest first audition ever and she nailed it. The Knowles sisters better move over there’s some new siblings in Hollywood.

(Thursday) This week has been filled with blessings My oldest daughter calls me and tells me she has to be on set at Warner Bros that evening. We’re rejoicing! That’s more birthday money!! We have been praying to be able to celebrate the whole month of August because you only turn 21 once! Well, they liked my daughter so much they asked her to come back and film some more Friday. More birthday money!

The very same day at lunch with my coworker, I put it out there that since I am writing a screenplay and I want to be a producer, it’s time I worked behind the scenes on a set. I need some hands on experience, and as a talent manager it doesn’t hurt to know how it all works. We get back to the office, and a hour later she comes to me and asks if I would want to work as an Production Assistant on a web series on Saturday. The only thing is that I wouldn’t get off until about 2am! I don’t have a car right now and I didn’t want to do public transportation that time of morning, so I had to decline. I figure if it was God’s will, it would have worked out. 20 minutes later my coworker comes back over, "If the producer gives you a ride home, would you be able to work?" Of course I said "yes" because it was clear that this was God’s will and once again he was showing me his favoritism.

I see nothing wrong with proclaiming to be God’s favorite. By knowing that I am my Father’s favorite, it helps me to have that extra confidence in speaking what he said was mines into existence, no matter how big or small. Are you acting like God’s favorite or His stepchild? :)

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Use me Lord

I can’t just pick out one scripture so I say read the Book of Daniel.

Last week I had this weird dream and when I awoke God told me to read the Book of Daniel. I read the whole book and I was still left confused about the dream. As days passed, my spirit kept going back to how Daniel, Hananiah, Mishael and Azariah never wavered in their love of the Lord. They stood up with CONFIDENCE in what they believed. They knew without a doubt God had their back. They were thrown in the fire and the lion's den and they never once wavered. Are you willing to do the same? I am. The devil has thrown some serious things my way and I continue to stand and Love my Lord. If it wasn’t for my Lord I would not be here today with a sound mind. It is by His grace that I have been able to go through sexual, verbal and financial abuse (the list goes on) and still I have love in my heart and I continue to stand.

God is taking me to that next level, which is why he had me read the book of Daniels. I no longer want to be meek in the Lord; I will walk in CONFIDENCE. I want to know that when I rebuke the devil in Jesus name, he has to flee as soon as the name Jesus comes out of my mouth. I want to know that today when I say my loved ones are healed in Jesus name, they will be healed today not tomorrow or next week. In the past, many times I would pray or take a stand Lord please heal so and so or Lord please send a financial blessing and 10 minutes later I’m worrying about what I just turned over to God. I am no longer that person. God has shown me through Daniel that when I take a stand, He has my back.

We are living in times where the devil and his little friends are wreaking havoc on this earth. God is rising up His soldiers, the children society had written off, to take a stand and know that we have the power to rebuke the devil in his son’s name “Jesus”. I don’t have a doctorate in theology, I don’t know the Bible by heart, I don’t always go to church etc., but I do know I love the Lord and I love my neighbors as I love myself. I do know I live for the Lord and not for man. I am the type of soldier God is calling on because he knows it’s coming from the heart and not the flesh. Daniel’s love for the Lord came from the heart, not from what he was taught in some school or church. That's another blog “Church Folks” 

I am a person who goes by person's actions, not what they say; I am a show me person. A few years back, my daughter asked me, how can I ask them to stay virgins until marriage when I myself couldn’t sustain from having sexual relations outside of marriage. I couldn’t answer because she was so right. Our actions speak louder than our words. I am happy to say I have been celibate for almost 4 years. God wants us to stop talking about how much we trust and love Him. God wants our actions to show that we trust and love Him.

Just in case you haven't heard it today God loves you and I love you :>

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Be Still

Psalm 37:7 "Be still before the LORD and wait patiently for him; do not fret when men succeed in their ways, when they carry out their wicked schemes."

Psalm 46:10 "Be still, and know that I am God; I will be exalted among the nations, I will be exalted in the earth."

Exodus 14:14 "The LORD will fight for you; you need only to be still."

Today my blog is short because I am being obedient to the Holy Spirit. God has put it in my Spirit to Be Still and not write much. A lot of words are not needed today. Sometimes God just wants us to be still and wait on Him. It’s so amazing how these two little words “Be Still” can be so hard to accomplish. Be Blessed and Know that God loves you and I love you.

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It’s okay to have a Funky day :(

Matthew 26:39
Going a little farther, he fell with his face to the ground and prayed, "My Father, if it is possible, may this cup be taken from me. Yet not as I will, but as you will."

In Matthew 26:39 – 43 (shows that) even Jesus had a funky night.

Most days I am a very positive person. Each day I am aware and very careful what I speak. I am so careful that I started a challenge with my girls. Whoever speaks negatively has to give 15 sit ups, jumping jacks and 4 sets of around the corner. So far I must say I am starting to look trim. They catch me every time! Sometimes being positive all the time can be a heavy burden. We need to be able let loose once in a while.

I remember once at work a coworker really ticked me off. I went to my director and vented. After I finished, I apologized to her for not being professional. The director laughed so hard. She was happy to see that I was human and that I wasn’t some Stepford woman.

A few years ago, God gave me a scripture and a vision. Since then I've had confirmation after confirmation that it will come to manifest. Little by little this vision is coming to pass. Each morning I get up hoping that God will speed things up and this will be the day that I see that vision manifested BIG TIME! As the day goes on, I don’t see it. Again I get up the next morning and say "Ok Lord. Today is that day." After a while, not seeing what God has put in my heart starts making me a little funky. Why does it seem as though when you’re waiting for God to move in your life that He moves in everybody else’s life but yours? :) Is he testing me to see if I will be happy for that person? I’m not going to lie, sometimes I’m not! Sometimes I’m like a child and want mine now and don’t want to understand that maybe it was that person’s time, and it’s not mine's yet.

This morning I had my tantrum… I text my mom hoping she would call me back, and she did. All it took was her to ask me how I was doing to set me off. I thank God for my mom. Even through my text she knew I needed to vent. If my girls had been around and heard me, I would have been giving at least 100 sit ups. After my tantrum, I started to count my blessings and the funk began to lift. I am once again not just waiting, but expecting my vision to manifest any day now. Each morning I will continue to wake up with an expectation. This morning showed me just because I was having a day it didn’t mean I doubted. There’s a difference. I didn’t doubt the vision God gave me, there’s a knowing in my SPIRIT that vision will come to pass. It’s just like a child waiting for Christmas morning to come. Some days that child is going to go to his or her parent and ask if they could open their gifts right now. That was me today "Lord can I have it today? Why can’t I have it today? I’m so ready to receive it today!"

I’ll probably have another tantrum, but what child doesn’t have tantrums with their parents? :) It’s like my Godmommy told me "It takes more time to build a Mercedes than it does a Toyota," and what God has put in my heart is a Mercedes vision….. ILuvMeSumU

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Are you listening to your flesh or the spirit?

Deuteronomy 28:1-3
If you fully obey the LORD your God and carefully follow all his commands I give you today, the LORD your God will set you high above all the nations on earth. 2 All these blessings will come upon you and accompany you if you obey the LORD your God:

This question is for me as much as it is for you. Do we follow the spirit when it’s just about big things that might give us an audience or are we following the spirit even when no one is looking? God wants us to follow Him each and every second not when it suits us. I’ve heard so many times it’s hard to live right. I’m learning that it’s really not hard to live with morals.

This past Friday I went to the store and purchased a few things. I noticed the cashier didn’t ring up the recycled bag I was getting. Hey:) I figure it’s just a dollar it’s not going to hurt the store. It’s a recession and I need every dollar. As soon as I walked out that store the Spirit was on me, nudging me to go back. I ignored the nudged and went home; that quick my flesh had won. When I arrived home, I wasn't feeling right. I had an attitude about every little thing... I was feeling funky.

After a couple of hours of snapping at everyone around me, I decided I had to take that dollar to the store. I'd had enough! Immediately after returning the money, my spirit was at peace... The little things do count.

It’s Saturday and I’m heading to the mall for ONE THING. I get there and I see my store... Bath and Body Works. I tell the girls, "I’m just going to go in and look around." They are having this HUGE sale!! Automatically, I start doing the numbers in my head. Okay... If I give up my morning muffin for a week, I can get me a couple of bottles of lotion and bath gel. I have so many bottles in my hands the lady gives me a bag. My daughters are laughing at me because we were at the mall to get "One thing." I’m on the line with a huge grin when the SPIRIT starts in on my flesh. Now I’m starting to have doubts about my purchases. I put one bottle back trying to bargain with the Spirit. The next thing I know I’m walking out empty handed. I was obedient and looked at the big picture. “I didn’t need that stuff”

I’m going to skip ahead to Monday. I get to work and I notice on my manager's desk she has a Bath and Body Works bag. My flesh feels a little sad because I couldn’t get any goodies Saturday. I settle in and my manager calls my coworker and I over where she proceeds to pull out her Bath and Body Works goodies. She gives us each at least 7 brand new bottles of lotions and they are the scents that I love!

God wants us to be lead by the Spirit even when there’s no audience. God rewards us even with the small things. I challenge you to listen to your spirit for the next seven days. You will see it’s really not that hard to listen and do right. After a while it will become 2nd nature.

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Second Chance

Wow! I can’t believe I am starting this Blog. This is to share my Spiritual journey with you. My family and friends that know me, know I don’t like to write but God has put it on my heart to share my journey. So I’m writing this because it’s not about my WILL but GOD'S WILL!

As I sit here and listen to Juanita Bynum sing “God of A Second Chance”. I can’t help but get goose bumps. I look back over my life and see that God has always been there by my side. God has given me and you so many chances. Yet why is it so hard to give our sister and brother a second chance? Who are we to say that a person doesn’t deserve a second chance? I remember as a teenager hearing how I would never be shit. Who would have thought years later that same young girl that was written off in man’s eyes would be living each day of her life serving God and not man? As the man I knew as my earthly father was telling me how I was a bitch and wouldn’t amount to anything, God was there by my side whispering how much he loved me and that He was my Heavenly Father. I don’t have the fancy house, car or diamonds YET, but if I was to die tomorrow I would die at peace because I know I lived that day serving the Lord and Not man. How many can say they live for God’s will in their lives and not thy WILL?

I thank you Lord for that 2nd, 3rd and 4th ….. Chance because if it wasn’t for the chance to fall and get back up I wouldn’t be writing this blog.

If no one hasn’t told you today, I love you and God loves you. Be Blessed

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